Thank You, My Ethics + Math Teacher

Ini Teacher tu punya pasal!


It sounds like this is nothing new and that it hasn't been for a while
You wake up on the other side and you strain to force a smile
The fairy tale inside your head has become your new best friend
But I can assure you, that I'll be there before the story ends

When I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see

I'm racing to the finish line of a lifetime that's barely started
The piece of mind I left behind, I pray you keep in your perfect garden
You waited on a minute hand in the countdown to last for days
But I'm here to tell you, it won't be long before I'm here to stay

'Cause when I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see

The weightlessness and the lack of rest
Away from you, I'm in over my head
Even when it's dark before the dawn
I will feel your grace and carry on

And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see
When I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see

Even when it's dark before the dawn
I will feel your grace and carry on
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I see
The only light I see


-Title: Every Breath, Boyce Avenue




This song... I love it. I love Alenjandro from Boyce Avenue (His favourite song). Thanks coz you're introduced this acoustic band to me. Love it. His voice- melting-


Firstly, I wanna thank to my deary Ethics + Math Teacher, Tenjo Knighto. Yup. That's his name. West + East.

Last week, truly... I'm dealing with something that almost make me insane again. But, you're there. Giving me support, advice- nagging 24/7- just to make sure that I am sane. Sane with reality, sane with truth, sane with the changing. You're there. Kept support me, checking me out all the time. I know, you're so worried about me. I'm okay, as long you're by my side. Please keep me sane. Because I don't want to feel 'it' anymore. 

Thank you for always be by my side when I'm sad, wanna kick someone ass, wanna punch someone faces, wanna pot pet pot pet till midnight. Thanks for everything. Seriously, I meant it. I never had such a loyal and understanding best friend like you in my life. You always used to say words that I really wanna to hear. Things that I even can't explain it in words. You did it. Yeah, you did it. You know how hard I faced all of this. How tired I am, tried to force myself deal with it. You know, you know it very clearly, but you never stop trying to keep me in sanity. You know that I tried so hard to keep it secret. But then, tears never lies. You really have antenna for it. And I really hope that I can do the same as yours when you're dealing with 'it'. You have me, still... you have me. We're be friend in such a long time. And you can count on me. Because, it's okay if I'm not the most important person in your life, Iki. I know the day will come when you meet her, the love of your life. I just wanna be the one who always be there for you, no matter what. I'm want be that person. Because you do the same for me. That's what best friend used for. Thanks for everything, Iki.


p/s: I called him/give him that 'My ethics + Math Teacher' nick name coz he's always the one who nagging me when I'm using the 'D' word and the 'B' word. Yeah, very ethic... And, I can't lie or prank him when it's come to number. Yada... yada... yada.. Because he is the 'E'. Why... why... why.....    =.= Sigh...


Calar Balar

Deary diary...




Bila derita,
Mata hanya terkatup berkelip-kelip,
Menadah semangat dari udara yang gagah berangin,
Cuba menahan mutiara dari jatuh di pipi,
Padahal hati sudah mula sesak berbisik.

Adakala,
Aku mahu lantang bersuara,
Membidak segala gedik gemalai dia,
Tapi, aku tahu.
Dia sahabatmu, kononnya.

Maka,
Dengan hati yang separuh nanar,
Aku iyakan segalanya,
Melihat gedik gemalai dia di depan mata,
Walau hati menjerut resah,
Kamu tak pernah menguis dia,
Walau gedik gemalainya lain rupa.

Aku,
yang berdiri di sini,
tiap kali teguh berdiri
kerana kamu ada,
yang dahulunya teguh berprinsip
kerana kamu ada,

Namun,
kini aku lemah,
khabar demi khabar,
mula sesakkan dada dan minda,
dunia mula kelam gelap,
bunyi bising mula menerawang tanpa punca.

Sudah calar balar jadinya,
Ditahan air mata,
Di hati pula melimpah,
Sesak dan rimas mengepung jiwa,
Jalan keluar seakan tiada.

Tuhan,
Aku mohon petunjuk benar-Mu
Bukakan mata hati dan akal butaku
Hilangkan resah,
Hilangkan duka,
Hilangkan rasa terkhianat,
Moga jalan keluar nampak rupa,
Moga ia senantiasa ada.
Moga aku tidak sesat.

Kerana,
Aku mahu hidup,
Hidup dalam erti benarnya hidup.
Tanpa khianat, tanpa luka.
Hanya tenang.




Tajuk: Calar Balar


p/s: Dah lama tak tulis puisi. Best juga bila dah start ni. Hahaha.



Betrayal

"TRUST... It's takes years to built, but just seconds to break."




Just for them...

Break the trust is simply easy.
Breaking heart who is love you too much. 
Breaking trust who put belief in you too much.
Breaking dreams who is include you too much. 

Just enough.
Heart is pain enough to feel.
Mind is ache enough to think.
Mouth is speechless enough to speak.
Eye is hurt enough to see.
Ear is tired enough to listen.

Be free, Aurora.
Be free.
Do what you want to do.
Eat what you want to eat.
Laugh when you want to laugh.
Sleep when you want to sleep.

Yes,
Betrayal is tired to feel.
Betrayal is hurt to hold.

"Just be free from this invisible cage.
To them, you own explanation.
But then, it's useless.
To admit his fault is coward enough.
For him, to give explanation is impossible enough.

For her, life is not always on top.
If you believe in karma, well you should.
All the pain you gave to me, forgiveness is the best medicine.
Forgiveness and a promise.
Protect him and his family with your life.
Then, forgiveness will be valid."

Enough, Aurora.
Be free.
You should fly high.
Birds and stars are waiting for you.


Title: Be free, Aurora.




p/s: Too much broken English. Just ignore it.